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" ...his dear wife, clear and faithful, in his arms,
longed for as the sunwarmed earth is longed for by a swimmer,
spent in rough water as his ship went down,
under Poseidon's blows, gale winds and tons of sea
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in joy, in joy, knowing the abyss behind."

The Odyssey, Homer

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i dont know if this feeling is identified with temporary relief, i wish so much that-

mocks are over, will be, in about 10 hours time :)
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and sometimes what you seem so sure about, can suddenly doesn't seem so in just a split second.